Can you justify cancer?
Cancer is one of the most irrational things. How did this just happen?
I didn't have any of the risk factors. I eat fairly healthy. I run, I bike, I swim. I've always considered myself a nice person. What can I use to justify why/how this happened?
And I guess the worst irrationality of this whole irrational mess is that I can't.
But that doesn't stop me from trying. Trying to figure out why something happened or how event a and b led to event c is such a big part of being human. So even though I'm at a definite high right now, as my drug gives me pretty much clear scans, I still find myself pointing out the positive things that wouldn't have happened were it not for the big C. (probably just for sanity’s sake).
The one that tops the list is probably the people I've met. I'm not going to list them off for fear of leaving someone out, but you know who you are. (and I will note that strong, inspirational women are the most prevalent on this list). Half the time when I'm telling a story I just refer to these people as my LC fam. They are lively and beautiful inside and out. And guess what, I wouldn't have met these people were it not for the big C...so I guess that's justification number one in my head.
Another one that even I would be slightly envious of as an outsider are the free trips. The advocacy part of this journey has definitely been the fun part, and I am loving this East Coast travel. I've also been blown away by the brilliant minds I have met through these trips...the world of cancer is definitely headed in the right direction.
Third, it turns out I'm a fairly positive person...nice to know.
Fourth, my family and friends have gone way beyond the call of duty in supporting and I honestly aspire to have that level of selflessness. I love you.
So can you justify cancer? Nope...you sure can't, but for sanity's sake I'm still going to try.
This is a really random picture to put up, but one, you've seen enough pictures of me, two, I love Eddie Redmayne (will you be my make-a-wish) and three, this movie has been replaying in my mind. Not totally sure why, but I was able to relate way more than I thought I would. Point being...go see it and admire the human spirit and capability.
“I have noticed even people who claim everything is predestined, and that we can do nothing to change it, look before they cross the road.” Or the classic, “While there is life, there is hope.” A-freaking-men Mr. Hawking...(Okay, maybe I enjoyed it a little too much.)
Thanks for reading. Ciao.
PS. Update on travels: end of January= quick trip to NYC to talk to Flatiron Health. Check out this video, http://www.flatiron.com ...They look amazing.
Mid February= trip to Cambridge again to see the fabulous Foundation Medicine.
So book your Corey experience now! Totally kidding. Besos.
You are right, Core - belief that innately there is the invisible/invisible benevolence in this universe that sometimes gently and sometimes not, takes us through a path meant just for us to individually travel and to understand to let it be is the hardest thing to ever learn and the most inspiring state to ever be - is sustenance.
ReplyDeleteOne of the most eloquent things I've read. Couldn't have said it better myself. <3
DeleteThanks for scooping me with info on your next visit to FMI! :) I was a bit bummed having to leave for the airport as you were just entering FMI with Deb last month. Glad we were able to be penciled in again!--Dan
ReplyDeleteYeah!! I'll see you soon Dan. Love me a Foundation Med. visit.
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